I Could Go On Forever

A couple things I don't understand

1. Why ANYONE cares about some druggie tennis players book with all of his confessions. Hes a loser.. he plays tennis, he had ugly hair, he lied... Welcome to America.

2. Why must it be that I make a pot of coffee, drink a cup of coffee... right before a pipe line breaks and the water turn brown.. gross.. now I cant have any coffee (which may as well be the end of the world on mornings like this one... when I'm tired.. so every morning)

3. Why didn't I bring more than two pairs of shoes with me when I moved to Kentucky?

4. Vampires... I'm reading the House of Night book series... and it is soooo good... but I just don't get it.


Last night, Aunt Caron and I decided to have a few beers and help her neighbor/ friend/ tenant with her bedroom. I didn't do much helping.. I more watched ppl helping and drank beer. Then we went to Wal-Mart.. drunk and hungry... fun.. but not good. They have good chicken there.

So... I miss my mom. But when I try to talk to her on the phone.. she never shuts up (sorry mom, but you dont). I can't wait to go home for Christmas. See my family.. hang out with Wyatt, bug Mary and try to talk to her about sex (its really funny... I was always really open about it and talked to my mom about EVERYTHING. Too much sometimes.. but she gets embarrassed and angry at me for trying to talk about it... which I find kinda funny. Okay, very funny. I actually laugh at her a little. What are big sisters for?!). My other little brother, Kyle, He is fun to go out with. Hes a huge whore.. and I love it when he gets hammered and acts like a complete idiot.. but still manages to get with any girl that walks by him. But what can I say, Hes cute!! Nights at home, in NY, consist of drinking, cards, talking and jumping on the trampoline until Wyatt gets so angry he kicks you off... (hes 4 and hates it when someone bigger than him steals all his "sweet tricks") Soon.

Other than that... I feel like once I get my stuff back from the psycho Italian ass hole... things will get better... a lot better. I miss my dog tho. oh well. I wanna get a little one. like a poodle. it seems like my entire family has poodles. So maybe they all know something other ppl don't know.. we'll see.

Over this past weekend... I decided that I was going to use the debit card that I share with psycho Italian ass hole. He got pissed at me, called me bunch of very unnecessary names.. and reminded me of how much of an idiot he is (he cant spell.. and never talks right. I just happen to understand him. But now, its annoying). So I spent money. At the bar (Jon Cory and I.. we needed beer!), gas, cigarettes, stuff to drink... stupid shit. but stuff I didn't want to spend money on if I could make psycho Italian ass hole angry. And boyyy did it make him angry!!! Because he spent my money... and lied to me about it.. (I thought the money I put in there was still there, he told me it was) he is now $500 in the negative... HAHAHAHAHA. maybe that's mean... buuut I don't really care. Next time I decide to get involved with someone... It needs to be with someone who understands that you get no where by screaming at eachother. It annoying, pointless and stupid. Plus, I always tend to say things I don't mean.. or I hurt someones feelings. I don't like to be mean. So don't yell!!! talk, like adults. And girls, don't say a bunch of pointless shit, that happened 5 years ago. Also, stop rambling. If your talking for more than three minutes.. hes not listening. They are men.. they dont talk. They see. Maybe Im wrong.. but I dont think I am. Women are bitches!!! show that you aren't (and then be one when you bitch about him to your friends).

There is some advice I have been hearing a lot lately. A couple ppl I know, along with myself, have been having relationship issues. Rat's daughter, Casey (I love her) was told: "If you are not happy with someone six days out of seven, it is not meant to be" WHAT THE HELL???!!?!? Where was this advice when I needed it?!?! O and another thing.. People need to listen a little more to people who are not involved in the relationship. An outsiders opinion is usually right. Yeah, maybe there is a back story.. but if there is a back story, and your still not over it.. you never will be. Stop keeping quiet.. it builds resentment. And who wants to argue over something that happened forever ago.. and now your getting pissed because of something that shouldnt even matter.. its stupid.
(Sorry if this doesn't make much sense.. I'm on a roll)

"Bare" - Matt Nathanson... very good

Well, I guess I should work some.. stay tuned!!!