Rotten Lemons

I haven't been blogging lately because of a few reasons.. 1. I have had to much going on. 2. I haven't felt like it 3. I forgot

So, lately.. this is what has been going on...

I haven't talked to Dave in oooo about a week? week and a half? No, Dave I didn't forget about you. at all. I was/am just... too overwhelmed.

pIah... in and out of my life alllll the damn time. I let it happen tho.. so I guess I can't complain too much. I guess he just knows how to push every button I have (good and bad).. and he is also manipulative. Hes also a man-whore and he is also a douche bag. I want to hate him so much.. I'm starting to hate him.. So I am on the right track. I'm sure in a few weeks he will piss me off again and we will be back to "pIah is out of my life FOREVER".

I am getting annoyed by EVERYONE lately. esp (and no offense to anyone) but the damn red-neck people who are Jimbo's clients.. who don't use common sense.. or have any real knowledge. They talk and talk and talk and talk.. and make no sense... and they talk more and more and more and more.. and make even less sense.. then don't let me tell them what is ACTUALLY going on.. because, well, what do I know.. I only made it past the eighth grade.. which they did not... they dropped out.. and married their damn cousin. ugh. annoying. I am hating my job. But have also become semi-okay with the fact that I have to deal with it for now. if I live that far... or don't go to prison for strangling.. a certain someone who happens to be my boss.

Ugh.. he just came in the door. I really don't like him AT ALL. I actually would venture to say that I hate  him. immensely. My patience has dropped considerably low since I have moved here. I just  don't have any... at all anymore. So I guess it's safe to say it has dropped a lot.

My little brother turned five Tuesday. He is so stinkin' cute, I can hardly stand it. My other brother also just passed two of his H VAC certification tests me had to take... letting him take over his boss' business. I am sooooooo proud of him, I can hardly stand that either.

My thoughts (deep or shallow, either way, mine)
Life will ALWAYS hand you lemons. But sometimes, or a lot of the time, those lemons aren't fresh. Sometimes they are rotten. You can't get pissed at life for it; because frankly, life doesn't care. It's what life thought you needed, what you needed to grow, to learn, to prosper. But just because you can't sit on that porch you spent your ENTIRE LIFE to build and drink fresh lemonade, doesn't mean it's the end of everything. The sun is still shinning, summer is around the corner, your babies are still growing, your family and friends are still there, the sun will rise the next day... Life will still go on. Beauty and happiness and joy will still be surrounding you. Everywhere you turn (plus, lemons aren't that big, just look around them).

The ugliness and the hurt that those rotten lemons brought.. can be thrown away. Because life will also give you fresh lemons. Maybe not when you want them, but probably when you need them. Sometimes you get oranges or strawberries.. sometimes you get rotten bananas. But it will always be something you need.

No matter what life handed you.. no matter what situations you have to deal with... more will come. more rotten lemons, more of life's lessons, more shitty situations that you didn't deserve will be prominent on your doorstep. Waiting for you. You can't run from it, too many people are depending on you. Too many people love you.. and there are still A LOT of people who want to sit on your beautiful porch and enjoy the sunset WITH you (and they probably won't enjoy themselves if your all upset, all the time, over your rotten lemons).

So enjoy your beautiful, forever changing porch and enjoy the view! It's GORGEOUS! Soooo maybe a thunder storm will pass through, but that will soon pass too (and that's a WHOLE other analogy).

Happy almost weekend. HAVE A GOOD DAY!!
xoxoxo