However.. this is what I am thinking about today..
After talking for a while with a friend, who shall reamin nameless... Thoughts about people, life, and expectations went charging through my head like a stampede of African elephants.
Life goes by fast. We all know that. but we often forget about it when something happens and your problem is all your world revolves around. We forget that in a day, an hour, two seconds, that problem will be forgotten.. so why are we so stressed about it? Why are we all so self centered, we often forget that other people have problems, feelings, experiences and knowledge that we do not have? Its nice to say that we are aware.. and portray ourselves as someone who thinks about others.. but when it comes down to it, in time of need, not many people matter but ourselves. Life will pass us by and we have spent the majority of it thinking how to get ahead. How to make money, make friends, have the best... when that doesn't matter. not really.
Life also will not give you the easy way. Life gives you a tough time, sits back in its lazy-boy, cracks open a beer and says "now, lets see you get out of this one, tough guy. You thought last week was tough? HA! just wait till next week! I am gonna rock your world." It's not easy because then it would be boring. EVERYONE has a hard time. EVERYONE has shit that happens to them. Excuses won't get you anywhere but in a hole.. a giant hole.. with nobody but yourself and your self pity to try and get out. SO, get over it! Make the best of it! Do what you have to do because you have to do it. And while you're at it, crack open a beer and enjoy it a little, laugh, have a good time.. because more hard times are coming.. maybe not as bad, maybe worse.. but life can be a bitch.. it can also be absolutely amazing.. if you live it having responsibility for yourself, your actions, your mistakes... and if you enjoy your accomplishments.. It won't be so bad. There is no use in thinking "I always get the tough road" "I am so unlucky, nothing goes the way I want it to"... Because the person behind you in the McDonald's drive through is thinking the same thing.. AND probably has it worse than you do. Enjoy your experiences. Half the time, they are funny ass stories about that one time you fucked up. Might as well get a head start and laugh now
Now.. I am not perfect. By any means. I will be the first one to say that I talk a big game... but I throw a hell of a lot of foul balls (it does get old after a while). But I am working on it. I try to be a good person. Occasionally I make decisions solely because I want to save my own ass. And sometimes, I don't feel bad about it (I know, awful). But.. I take care of myself. I do what needs to be done. I progress as I go on. I learn from my mistakes.. and I (for the most part) take responsibility for my actions.. I mean, hell, Usually.. I was just having a good time. shit. But I try hard not to blame people for why I did things. I try really hard to be in a good mood, think on the positive side of things... and do what is expected of me.. because I am an adult. I don't bitch about it (not all of the time) because... it just needs to be done. And it will need to be done again.. and again.. and again.
Another thing... If you are over the age of 20... get off your ass, get a job, go to work/school... and grow the fuck up. thats all I have to say about that. Don't bitch about it.. because we all have to do it. Most people are probably doing more that you are. With no help.
So that's what I was thinking. I need a cigarette. gross, huh?
I miss my mom. I also miss my dad. I am hungry. pIah pisses me off... because he hasn't done anything wrong lately... so I currently have no reason to hate him.. and that makes me angry. Jimbo is a dick head. I wish my guy situation would just figure itself out. I have decided that if I go to bed early.. I will be tired the next day. I need like six hours of sleep... thats it. I'm going to someone's wedding.. and I don't know them.. I also may be going to the lake (yay). I have decided that I am going to cave and lay in the tanning bed a little. I'm sick of looking like Casper's sister.
HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND!!!
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