Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday

Happy Hump Day. AND Happy Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday. I know I haven't posted in a while.. again.. I just didn't feel like it. But a lot has happened.

I got a new tattoo. That would be five now added to the collection.

The quote was already there. The design around it is new. It took two hours.. and I still have to go back to fill it in. Not gonna lie... it hurt like hell. But  I LOVE IT!!!

Anywho.. Cory, Jon and Aiden all came home for Easter. We hid eggs, hung out. Friday I met a guy who looks just like President Obama. He wants to take me to dinner.

Corey got a new tattoo.. it matches the one on my wrist.. its a butterfly. VERY masculine.. just like Cory, my TWIN.

this song is really good

so is this one...
you may recognize it from "Ruby"

My mom should be here in July. I miss her a lot. I guess she had a rough Easter. Her boyfriends youngest is starting to resent my little brother.. and get jealous of the attention her dad shows Wyatt. Kinda wish I could have been there... so I could have put some children in their place. She is nine. Wyatt is five. If a child four years old than another decides to be a bully... I become very unfriendly. I was picked on a lot when I was younger.. and it drives me crazy. Spoiled kids who are assholes also drive me crazy.

I'm not even trying to quit smoking anymore. I know, I know.. its so bad. But I don't want to. I enjoy it. 

anywho

Lately.. because I have been NOT looking for someone of the opposite sex to spend my time with.. they have all come pounding on my door.GREAT.

I have really been missing pIah lately. I don't know why and I know I shouldn't. I don't know what I miss.. but I miss him. I hate thinking that one day, I am going to regret not trying a second time... and hes trying. hard. If you ignore the penis pictures.. hes not doing bad. But there is just something holding me back. Something I can't explain. There is also something else pushing me forward.. something ... just as strong as what's holding me back. Conflict that I am trying to get in the middle of... but it's like my own emotions are keeping me out. Keeping me from figuring it all out and having some peace of mind. It's like I'm not supposed to figure it out yet. I don't know. who does these days tho.

Drewsly (my dads name, not an actual name) ... I have been hanging out with him too. He has been out of town for a while.. soo it hasnt been much recently.. but I enjoy his company. And hes cute. And hes nice.. and.. I can't complain.

P.O. (pres. Obama.. nickname.. he seriously looks just like him, but younger).. Hes very handsome. Hes very cocky. He caught my attention. He too is also nice.. and sweet. He wants to hang out, has been asking me to all week.. I come up with excuses because I don't know what to do.

Then there is Dave. We were talking very seriously for a while. Dave is.. indescribable. Hes a great person. But I don't know if I am ready to become as serious as he wants. I just.. can't right now. I'm too.. discombobulated. ugh.

frustrating.

I don't think Double will be around anymore. I haven't talked to him much at all. Besides, how far can something go when he is in TEXAS. It's not even a neighboring state! hell.

O and.. sometime two weeks ago.. My TWIN and I were listening to a local radio station.. and we had been drinking...  and everything they were playing was depressing. So Cory told me to call them. And I did. After the phone rang for.. o, two years.. the dj finally answered. I gave him some grief about taking so long to answer the phone. He told me he was going to the bathroom.. I told him he should have been waiting for my call. I then rambled.. about who knows what.. with my aunt singing the wrong lyrics to "Hey Soul Sister".. I wanted him to play Rihanna's new song.  He said he would. Somewhere in there.. I asked him on a date.. totally kidding... He said no. haha. Then.. about an hour later, my aunt called back. Asking them to play "hey Soul Sister".. and he said he wanted to facebook me. My A. Caron told him my name.. and he did. He has also been asking me to hang out with him.. about three times this week, two weekends ago and this past weekend. hmmmmm. hes cute, too. I think he may be gay? buuut according to facebook, he is not. But I wonder.

Sooo.. I just don't know what to do! I know, a huge issue I have, huh?